{"id":176539566,"date":"2013-04-09T14:24:00","date_gmt":"2013-04-09T14:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/quotidiantruth.posterous.com\/slippery-slope"},"modified":"2013-04-09T14:24:00","modified_gmt":"2013-04-09T14:24:00","slug":"slippery-slope","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/2013\/04\/09\/slippery-slope\/","title":{"rendered":"slippery slope"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>[<a href=\"\/\/storify.com\/amichetti\/conversation-with-amichetti-and-reidau1\" target=\"_blank\">View the story &#8220;Conversation with @amichetti and @reidau1&#8221; on Storify<\/a>]<\/p>\n<h1>Conversation with @amichetti and @reidau1<\/h1>\n<h2><\/h2>\n<p>Storified by <a href=\"http:\/\/storify.com\/amichetti\">Adrienne Michetti<\/a>&middot; Tue, Apr 09 2013 07:28:24<\/p>\n<div>This has not been a very good day. :-\/Adrienne Michetti<\/div>\n<div>@amichetti need to share what happened?A Reid<\/div>\n<div>@reidau1 stoopid ankle injury. that&#8217;s most of it.Adrienne Michetti<\/div>\n<div>@amichetti ah, stopping you from being active.A Reid<\/div>\n<div>@reidau1 yes. If I&#8217;m not careful&#8230; slippery slope to depression.Adrienne Michetti<\/div>\n<\/p>\n<p>A few years ago, when I injured my ankle for the first time, I learned a few unpleasant truths about myself:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>When I&#8217;m not active, I put on weight. Not a lot, but enough to not fit into my clothes.&nbsp;<\/li>\n<li>This didn&#8217;t use to happen. I used to never exercise and never worried about weight &#8211; EVER. I used to be <strong>that girl<\/strong> you hated because she never had to worry about it. I used to never understand my weight-obssessed friends. (Getting older sucks.)<\/li>\n<li>Not being able to be active, and therefore not fitting into my clothes makes me depressed REALLY quickly.&nbsp;\n<ul>\n<li>Fact: within a week of being confined to my apartment and under doctor&#8217;s orders not to walk farther than 4 blocks, I had slipped into a cynical and self-pitying depression.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li>This affected my ego greatly &#8212; actually up to that point, I don&#8217;t think my ego and I had ever had such a blowout as this. It was a full-on war.&nbsp;<\/li>\n<li>I&#8217;m afraid of growing older and\/but\/yet I&#8217;m trying <strong>not<\/strong> to be&#8230; and &#8230; I am possibly not succeeding at that.&nbsp;<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>So, re-injuring the same ankle as I did in 2010 has put me in a pretty foul mood. I&#8217;m <strong>trying<\/strong> not to let it get the best of me. I&#8217;m <a href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Mindset-Psychology-Success-Carol-Dweck\/dp\/0345472322\">reading this<\/a> right now, and so I&#8217;m <strong>trying<\/strong> to just see this setback as something I can learn from &#8212; I shouldn&#8217;t have been so over-zealous about my fitness regimen, I should have listened to my body better, I shoudn&#8217;t exercise just to prove a point, etc. etc. I am trying to turn this into a learning moment so that I can grow as a person and &#8230; maybe even an athlete.<\/p>\n<p>But it&#8217;s really REALLY hard.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>:-\/<\/p>\n<p>So please bear with me. I don&#8217;t want to slide down that slippery slope again, because it was <strong>most<\/strong> unpleasant. I&#8217;m getting teary and blubbery just thinking about it, writing about it right now, because those memories are painful. And I&#8217;m embarrassed and ashamed that this is how I feel about it all&#8230; but I <strong>have to<\/strong> say it because the whole purpose of this blog project was to document the truths I encounter each day&#8230; and so here I am.<\/p>\n<p>Truth: I hate the fact that I&#8217;m 38 and not 28. To be fair, I don&#8217;t always hate that fact, but today I do.<\/p>\n<p>Truth: I don&#8217;t know how to <strong>not<\/strong> hate that fact when I&#8217;m injured like this.<\/p>\n<p>I <strong>can<\/strong> not hate it &#8212; heck, I can even embrace it! &#8212; when I&#8217;m feeling great and I&#8217;m active and blahblahblah, but I seriously have a LOT to learn about how to embrace it when I&#8217;m feeling like shit with my ankle on ice because it hurts to walk to the f*cking kitchen.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>So if you have any ideas on how I can embrace that when I&#8217;m injured and immobilized, please help. Reading materials, video, cognitive behavioural therapy exercises, journaling prompts&#8230; what have you, I am OPEN because I know intellectually that simply being angry and fearful and depressed about it <strong>isn&#8217;t<\/strong> helping. Neither is pretending that I&#8217;m &#8220;fine.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I would really like to shed the shame of this and move past it, because I also know, in the grand scheme of things, that a sprained ankle is <strong>not a big flipping deal!<\/strong>&nbsp;I don&#8217;t have freaking cancer, I&#8217;m not dying, it&#8217;s STUPID. I know all of this, and yet I don&#8217;t know how to stop feeling this way&#8230; but I want to <strong>not<\/strong> feel this way because I know how STUPID it is.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Am I making any sense?&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[View the story &#8220;Conversation with @amichetti and @reidau1&#8221; on Storify]Conversation with @amichetti and @reidau1Storified by Adrienne Michetti  Tue, Apr 09 2013 07:28:24This has not been a very good day. :-\/Adrienne Michetti@amichetti need to sha&#8230; <a href=\"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/2013\/04\/09\/slippery-slope\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[242,246,290],"class_list":["post-176539566","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-injury","tag-pain","tag-thinking"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3rl4S-bWK0m","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176539566","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=176539566"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176539566\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=176539566"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=176539566"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/adriennemichetti.com\/truth\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=176539566"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}