Today I fought a battle I have fought many times before. It’s getting ridiculous, to be honest. It was a professional battle — I won’t go into details here. Sometimes I wonder why I still fight it. <\/p>\n
And then I realized why I still fight it: because I know the value of it. To be more specific:<\/p>\n
I hope you’re not misinterpreting me here — I’m not saying that simply because I think something is important, or because I initiated it, that it therefore has value. One could, I suppose, argue this from a purely logos<\/a><\/em> angle, but that’s not what I’m on about here. What I’m getting at is this: I have limited energy. I put that energy into those things that I value. Today’s truth: When I value something highly, I put my Self into it <\/strong>— that is, my Self is part of my whole being and it is inseparable from other parts of me. It is througout. <\/p>\n I realize not everyone is like this. Others may behave very differently when they value something highly — and I totally get that, and this diversity is what makes our world great. I know someone who assembles a team and funds ($) whenever he comes across something he values highly — I admire this so so so so much because I think it must mean he distributes his energy better than I do. I know someone else who retreats into a meditation corner (literally) when she finds something she values highly — she feels the innermost need to go deep inside herself, privately, to dwell in whatever it is that she values. I admire this too — I covet that kind of regular personal internal commitment. <\/p>\n I also realize that while my 100% energy spending\/bingeing — that is putting my whole Self into those things that I highly value — is occasionally an endearing trait of mine, it’s often annoying as hell. In fact, it means I regularly have to remind myself where to draw the line between Self and The Bigger Picture, just in the name of balance and adequate mental health, friendships, and preservation. <\/p>\n But hey — at least I realize this about myself, and I can work on it. And it helps me to recognize when something truly IS a battle worth fighting. <\/p>\n Something else: even when I lose these battles, I never really<\/strong> lose. Because when it’s something that I’m so connected to, so embedded<\/strong> into, I just continually push forward — perhaps in another way, manner, place, or with different people. But I know that if it’s that<\/strong> valuable, it has to be part of something I do. Period.<\/p>\n That’s all. I will keep fighting the battles I know are worth it… because I know their value.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Today I fought a battle I have fought many times before. It’s getting ridiculous, to be honest. It was a professional battle — I won’t go into details here. Sometimes I wonder why I still fight it. And then I realized why I still fight it: becaus… Continue reading